Louise Hay says if there is something about another person you dislike, it's because you have the same trait. That's the reason you attracted the person into your life.
So I'm moaning about Clare being jealous and I'm just as bad. I do think jealousy comes from insecurity and lack of confidence.
And I've always been jealous of one of my oldest and best friends, Lemonie.
I am a horrible person.
She's just come back from a holiday in Turkey. So she phoned me and was on about all the men being after her.
Which they would be, she doesn't need to go to Turkey. She is very beautiful, it is so not fair. Six-foot and blonde, she could have been a supermodel. And ageing really well.
I was very dismissive. 'Oh, these Meditteranean men are always after eveyone'. True, but I was jealous.
Envy has no eyes. I learnt that in some psycho-theatre workshop that I once did. It helped. A bit.
'Maybe your friend deserves that life, who knows what she went through in another incarnation?'
That was fifteen years ago and since then, Lemon's life isn't as perfect as it once was. A divorced daughter, lots of cracks in her own marriage and the worse of all....
Bonnie told me off.
'Jealous of that poor woman? Who lost her breast through cancer!'
Mea culpa.